This I recall to my mind, therefore I have hope. The Lord’s loving kindnesses indeed never cease, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; Great is your faithfulness. ‘The Lord is my portion,’ says my soul, ‘therefore I have hope in Him.’ The Lord is good to those who wait for Him, to the person who seeks Him. (Lamentations 3:21-25)
If I ever start to question the Lord’s favor in my life; if I ever question that He has complete and absolute control; if I ever allow even the smallest grain of doubt to enter my mind or my heart, He does something that is so amazingly good that it almost brings tears to my eyes.
Life is full of so many uncertainties. Going from a job that I lived and breathed for so many years, a job I knew well and (mostly) performed well to a job that I don’t know at all has been a big step for me. And I worry about learning everything I need to learn at work. Now that I have free time in evenings and weekends, I’m worried about making the best use of my time. I worry about my friends. I worry about my finances. I worry about some of these injuries that just won’t go away.
I find myself asking the Big Worry Question all the time…”What if….” When I was younger and writing quite a bit of fiction that phrase always opened up the world of a new story. It was a magical phrase ignited a flame of creativity. Now, these words can make me hold my breath while I think through all the terrible things that this life can bring.
And God just graciously brings me right back down to solid ground, the solid ground of His strong hands that are holding me tight; and then He does something that just crushes every single worry and fear that I have to smithereens. And I imagine His patient heart and my grateful heart beating in unison as He reminds me that nothing is ever going to cause His loving kindnesses (plural!) to end. He is my hope. He is my portion. He is my heart.
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